Am I in love or just infatuated?

DO YOU REMEMBER?





Do you remember the first time we met?


We all sat and in the garden drinking coffee and eating your well made upside down apple cake.


I remember that I could not take my eyes of you as you were the most beautiful person in my world. But your heart was for another as I watch you gently caress and hold his hand, my heart sank as then I knew I could never be by your side.


Sadly at the end of the day you left my life, but the thoughts were always of you, hoping we would meet again.





Do you remember the first time you came for a BBQ? I showed you my music, in my little corner of the world, the smell of you excited me, your body next to mine I could feel the electricity. The weather was bad and we ran out of gas for the BBQ. You took me in your car looking for an open garage to buy some more. Being so near you I longed to touch you my, heart was yearning, my mind wondering and scared you might take offence to my approach. I remember how I coaxed you into parking your car as you were scared of doing it wrong.





Do you remember telling me that you were going away for a while. How my heart sank at the feeling that I would not receive any form of communication from you. I longed for the day when you returned and I waited for the first of the long awaited e-mails. How you told me of your holiday with friends.





Do you remember the e-mails we used to write while you were at work? They started of so formerly yet there was a feeling that this was not just a form of communication, but a step to see if the water was hot or cold. I asked you for lunch but you declined, my heart collapsed and my soul saddened by the answer. I remember that for a while I never heard for you and how bad I felt that I had stepped over the boundary.





Do you remember how the e-mails began to become more personal and some had connotations and double meanings?


How you had a reason to go to work and we both could not wait until the next day to find out if either of us had written. How I used to send you poems that dictated my life, and how I longed to end the suffering I was living. The poems that were written personally for you began to get deeper as my heart poured out my feelings towards you.





Do you remember the first time we met away from any peering eyes. The flowers I brought were personally selected as each one reminded me of the smell of you. How our first kiss was electric to my heart, my head exploded and my soul for the first time in years had pulled it’s self together.





Do you remember the lunch breaks we had in the park under the biggest tree. Lying back in the sun enjoying each others company, how you used to unbutton my shirt just to rub my chest telling me how much you loved the feel of me.





Do you remember the first time we made love, we both left this planet and went to another parallel universe. The normal world would disappear for the few hours we could spend together. You were and still are still the most beautiful woman in the world to me. After the few hours were gone reality would come along with it the normal world would reappear.





Do you remember when our baby Elodie was born? I was so proud of you and already had such a closeness to Elodie. Each day I see her reminds me of the times we spent previously, knowing that she knew we were sharing love. The first day I got to hold her was like a shining light that opened my eyes to the brand new world she would encounter as life goes by.





Do you remember the holiday we had in the mountains? The time we spent together, every day a dream. Enjoying the freedom away from hurtful eyes. The day we were making love on the balcony while the old man walked his dog albeit very slowly and daily in the hope I guess. The places we went always left a picture in my mind, the nights together, making love and falling asleep in each others arms, awaking in the morning to a bright and beautiful day, having breakfast in the morning sunlight.


Do you remember the walks we used to take? Be it the forest, beach or the city, holding hands and the world we would always leave behind. We could be in amongst hundreds of people, yet be alone in our own beautiful world. No one could enter our world until it was time to come back to real life and return to our perspective lives.





Do you remember how we nursed me back to health when we were sick? Our devotion was beyond that of anything we have encountered, which made our love inseparable , knowing that love would not turn it’s back on our suffering





Do you remember the years we have spent together? So much has happened over the 3 years our hearts have entwined. The Birth of Elodie, the Birth of love and devotion, the Birth of a new life.





Will you remember in years to come the magic times we had shared? I know that I will never forget those secluded and precious times that life had given us and offers us more special times to come.





I want us to remember when the time our God calls us, that no matter where we are if we look into our hearts we will always be there and those special time will return when we meet again in a world where it will always be filled with love, until then we will keep out hearts for each other and love as much as life will allow and beyond.

Am I in love or just infatuated?
I think this to be so beautiful Honest One. I have not read its equal. Personally speaking, if someone wrote or said just a small fraction of this to me, I know I would never be the same. I now think you have spoiled me, as I want to hear this from someone. If I play my cards right, it may just happen. May I say thanks for sharing this? It made my night!!! Take Care, Jennifer
Reply:Hmm...
Reply:Is there a difference? I think that only time will tell.
Reply:LOLOL,,, no offense to you, but kudos "OMG", part of my thought exactly.





Without even reading the piece, I offer this anaolgy





LOVE is like the process of creating Cheese.





Infatuation, is more like liking a grilled cheese sandwich.





Steven Wolf


just my two "sense"
Reply:Aww that is really sweet!
Reply:i doubt after writing this that you still believe the relationship you wrote about to be infatuation.


it is beautifully written, very touching, and tender.


i loved it.


thank you for sharing it with us.
Reply:Ah! L'amour.......
Reply:eat some cheese it helps trust me! and if your in love just draw her a pic wit cheese i think thats hot
Reply:Honey, you are in Love, Love, Love! And you are flaming the embers of the great love I have for my husband right now as I read the words of your heart. Your relationship sound like ours; it took us 5 years to get together! We're going on14 years married, and its still love baby. Time has just been flying for us, it's been beautiful. So beautiful that we are shocked when people break-up or don't get along. Consider yourself blessed, thank God, and go on celebrating your lives together!





PS-People who don't or haven't ever had this combination of erotic and agape love think you are nuts; but, I understand.
Reply:did you write all of this yourself?


you must really be in LOVE!!
Reply:She is Pete a very special lady to hold you and have you in her life and your child a very special girl to have you for her father Good luck to you all and your very brave to have written and shared that piece with us.
Reply:True Love!
Reply:aah. you're in love. hope you gave her a copy. and put one away for your little one.
Reply:I think you are both, your writing is beautiful. Thanks for sharing that story, you have a real talent for putting words to your feelings.
Reply:Breath taking... I love it....You could steal a woman heart and sounds like you have!
Reply:dont know about you.. but im definately in love with your story...xx
Reply:superb-you should try writing as a career,that really moved me.
Reply:I don't know about being infatuated but you are most probably fat. Especially if you sat around home all day Saturday writing this.





Go do some exercise, tone up a little, visit your parents. It'll help keep your mind of things.